Yes, I’ve been thinking that for years.
I don’t know anyone who loves sex more than I do. Even though, of course, I look at it through my own eyes.
But people who know me really know that’s true for me.
I am sex, I breathe sex, I love sex.
Sex can be something heavenly. Something not of this world.
Completely absorbed in the moment, being one together. Awakening all the senses.
That is also why I prefer the tantric form.
Awakening all the senses. From teasing each other and building up that tension over and over again.
First ground yourself and center and focus.
And from there move towards each other. Connect with each other. To be one together.
Yes, I can really enjoy that.
Really being together. Being one together. Totally on and surrendering yourself to the moment, without losing yourself in ways, in the mind or in the other.
This was and has become so important to me.
Without that it is no longer necessary for me.
Even that doesn’t give me what I really long for anymore.
Over the years I have learned and experienced a lot.
And it has brought me to a point where I realize that everything but also everything in the physical world is a temporary thing.
A temporary, transitory something, which does not give me what I really long for.
I really am someone who lives fully from my senses.
I can really intensely enjoy things I feel, hear, taste, smell and see.
For me, music really unleashes things in me that go so deep. That’s how intensely I can enjoy them. I not only hear the music, I feel the music. I feel every vibration in my body and even that can release a sort of orgasm in me.
This is because I am such a sentient being and feel the energy of everything.
I can optimally enjoy a wonderful smell. From essential oils in my house or in the spa, or from cycling behind a man with a delicious aftershave.
Yes really, that can make me so wild.
Or from a tantric experience, where every touch in the moment and in connection can be felt deep into my Soul.
Or walking in nature, where feeling and seeing all that beauty can really cause a tantric orgasm in me.
Or really tasting and enjoying a piece of chocolate.
I am an energetic being that does everything by feeling. All my senses are awake.
Because of this I can also intensely enjoy every butterfly that flutters by and the structure on a leaf that goes on to perfection.
I am always on and absorb life to the fullest.
This is what gives me unprecedented joy.
But as I said, this gives temporary joy.
Also having a great day with a friend or an inspiring evening with a friend. Everything stops at some point and then the fullfillment stops.
I’ve really come to realize now, that things I’ve longed for all my life.
Whether it’s sex, that partner, or that climb and zipline experience, or that orgasm, those vacations, that money, or those amazing reviews.
Everything gives a temporary fulfillment.
The real fulfillment lies in the contact with Divine.
Yes, that’s where the real fulfillment is.
I can go back to it any time.
It is always there.
It always feels nice and fulfilling.
It gives me joy and immense love.
It is stable and eternal.
This is the love I was always looking for.
This is the fulfillment and the happiness I thought I would find in those outer physical things.
This is what I was looking for in partners, friends, money, food, drugs, reviews and sex.
Even if you are fulfilling your greatest dreams in the world. As long as you are not fulfilled at that moment and Connected with Divine, you won’t get any real lasting joy and fulfillment out of it.
This is something that makes me emotional at the moment in a sad way and at the same time in a positive way.
What makes me sad is the ego. The ego that is dying, because it longs for everything and wants everything. And now it longs for nothing anymore in the outside world, because it knows and has really felt, that nothing outside of them can fulfill this.
The emotional thing that is positive and cries out of happiness, is that the ego dies and I feel the immense love for Divine. This love is always there and I can always go.
It is eternal and who I am.
This Divine Love is incomprehensible in words.
It is an all-encompassing Love. It is Everything. It gives me so much extreme joy when I even step on it. It is simply everything that anyone can desire. It is all-filling.
No sex experience or big money experience can replace it.
But a great sex experience or big money experience in life is important to me, because next to Spirit I am also human and here for the human experience.
I am a Soul with a human experience and here to experience, to experience joy and to grow.
So how do I combine the two now?
These amazing deep insights now give me the realization that I must enjoy every moment for as long as it lasts.
And in that moment, by being fully awake with all my senses. And by being fully conscious and thus meditative in every moment, I am completely one with Divine.
This way I can feel that Pure immense Joy and Love as I sit down and meditate and also as I actively experience all physical experiences.
This is ultimate enlightenment and this is why we are here.
This is ultimate fulfillment in all areas of your life and especially in you.
This is being physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually balanced.
This is oneness and living life as it is meant to be.
Sex as the ultimate pleasure?
No, your connection to Divine and Divine Love in the Moment is the ultimate pleasure!
And then your sexual experience and everything after it and before it can be Heaven on Earth.
Then something temporary, becomes an eternity.
Yes, that is why we are here.
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